Heart break
When we lose in the game of love,
it felt like we lose our heart.
Its too hurt.
And I'm afraid too fall in love again...
it felt like we lose our heart.
Its too hurt.
And I'm afraid too fall in love again...
Day 3 : Five Peoples Who Mean A Lot
Friday, November 11, 2011 // 10:35 AM - 0 comment(s)
hari yang ketiga . 5 orang yang paling bermakna . err , kena bagitau ek ? okay fine ! EP bagi tau ..
First : Puteri Nurhazeera
budak kat atas ni kawan yang EP baru kenal 3 tahun . entah , tak ingat . dan EP mula rapat dengan dia sejak tahun lepas . maybe lah .. tahun ni , dia jadi bestfriend EP . perangai dia lebih kurang macam EP . dan EP suka luahkan rahsia -2 kat dia .
Second : Farhan Aniq
budak bibir 'HOT' , suka senyum senget , suka cari pasal dengan orang dan macam -2 lagi . dia selalu bagi EP coklat Cadbury Blackforest . time birthday EP ari tu dia ada bagi EP coklat Blackforest tu . siap 2 lagi dia bagi :D . dan dia salah sorang PAPARAZZI -.-' tak habis -2 ambil gambar senyap -2 semalam . kejams ! -.-' dan , EP selalu share rahsia dengan dia . wee ~
Third : Farhan
gambar ni still jadi wallpaper phone EP ='>
sorang lagi budak bibir hot and suka senyum senget x) . kawan yang paling best pernah EP kawan . walaupun rapat dekat facebook and twitter je , rasa macam dah lama kenal . actually tak sampai 2 bulan pun lagi kiteorang kenal . budak yang EP selalu tweet dekat twitter . gempak babe ! -.- . EP suka takutkan dia dengan bloody mary . dan , dia adalah peminat lady gaga . *sama macam EP (puii) . lagi satu ! dia selalu cakap EP hot dan PEMINAT dia ingat kan EP hot . pfffffft -_- .
Forth : Hanaa Nazira
bestfriend yang paling garang yang EP kenal . HAHA .. bukan garang apa . dia ni cepat marah .. tak boleh nak gurau , nanti mesti touching . eh , tapi dia baik tau ! dia tak kisah pun EP sepahkan barang dia atau campak beg dia merata -2 x) . tapi , kalau dia nampak nanti kena bebel =.=' selalu berangan seorang diri . dan selalu teringatkan dia punya NYEM NYEM . :)
Fifth : Ehan Pean
HAHA , tak tahu siapa lagi yang bermakna dalam diri EP . so , EP letak lah gambar EP sendiri . boleh kan ? ahh , lantak :p .
gambar -2 kat atas tu semuanya paling bermakna dalam hidup EP . kecuali kucing sesat tu . tu tak de kena mengena pun .. thanks korang sebab buat EP happy :)
p/s : gambar yang ketiga tuh . omeyyyy x)
bestfriend yang paling garang yang EP kenal . HAHA .. bukan garang apa . dia ni cepat marah .. tak boleh nak gurau , nanti mesti touching . eh , tapi dia baik tau ! dia tak kisah pun EP sepahkan barang dia atau campak beg dia merata -2 x) . tapi , kalau dia nampak nanti kena bebel =.=' selalu berangan seorang diri . dan selalu teringatkan dia punya NYEM NYEM . :)
Fifth : Ehan Pean
HAHA , tak tahu siapa lagi yang bermakna dalam diri EP . so , EP letak lah gambar EP sendiri . boleh kan ? ahh , lantak :p .
gambar -2 kat atas tu semuanya paling bermakna dalam hidup EP . kecuali kucing sesat tu . tu tak de kena mengena pun .. thanks korang sebab buat EP happy :)
p/s : gambar yang ketiga tuh . omeyyyy x)
I hate my past but I want back my past...
When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.
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The blog started May 2009. I made it as my online diary. Not a private, but a public diary. All inside my heart I wrote on it. I want to share to everyone and give you opinion about my entry. Sorry for broken english.
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The Past.
I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.
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The living memories // 2012
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With lots of help from : Letterwerk | The Fading Night | Touch The Velvet Sky | fivepointsapart | Tympanus | COLOURlovers | Un beau jour | mf2fm | atmospherica