Heart break

Dah lama dah tertangguh nak update blog ni . Buzy dengan tido + homework . Laptop pon dah berape lama tak berusik . Baru hari ni je terasa nak update . Hahaha =,=

First Day Sekolah :

Bangun dari tido , mandi , siap , masuk kereta . Badan panas lagi ni . Demam still tak elok -,-' . Sampai depan sekolah , salam mak , turun kereta . Menggigil terus masuk sekolah . Dan tetiba ternampak sorang akak form 4 ni . EP kenal dia dan dia tak kenal EP . mula -2 pandang . lepas tu boleh pulak tergelak -,-' . masuk sekolah macam biasa . tengok perhimpunan , KOSONG . Fine .. FOREVER ALONE . pukul 7.15 pagi dah start perhimpunan . cikgu ramai lah berucap . sakit kaki menunggu . dekat sejam duduk situ baru lah pergi naik kelas .

Otw Pergi Cari Kelas :

" Mano kelas nye ni ? Nak patah dah kaki ni " .Tak ingat ayat siapa tu . Kelas EP jauh gila ya amat . Tingkat 4 / atas sekali . Lepas tu hujung sekali sebelah tandas rosak . Cikgu pun lantik lah ketua kelas bagai blablabla . Lepas tu EP pusingkan kerusi hadap Puteri dengan Hanaa . Borak punya borak , sakit kepala datang tiba -2 . Dah lah time tu sejuk gila . menggigil kejap duduk dalam kelas . Nadia pulak datang join kiteorang . Dan tak pasal -2 EP suruh die urut kepala EP . Haha . Sori Nad xD

Dalam Bilik Muzik :

" Siapa yang bising dia ahli neraka sebab ahli neraka kena seksa disebabkan dosa -2 yang dieorang buat kan ? Kebisingan korang ni pon dah menunjukkan korang patut berasa di mana nanti " .. Ayat cikgu . Satu kelas diam dan cikgu pon sambung berborak .. " Cikgu tu bising boleh pulak -,-' " .. Ayat budak belakang EP . Time tu EP letakkan kepala atas meja sebab sakit kepala tak habis2 lagi . macam nak pecah je rasa . Kawan EP nama dia Hasnina duduk sebelah EP .. Dia tanya macam ni ..

Has : Pean nape ? Demam ke ?
EP : Tak de pape
Has : *sambil rasa dahi EP* Mila mila mila , dahi pean panas ..
Mila (kawan sebelah EP) : orang dah tau lame dah dahi dia panas . haha ..
*Nadia datang dan pergi dekat Mila*
Nad : Lah , Has baru tau ke ? Tengok muka dia .. *lepas tu dia tiru gaya Has balik*

time tu muka Nadia kelakar gila . macam Mr. Bean . 1.30 dah balik . Yeay ! boleh tido =,='

Second Day sekolah :

Masuk sekolah dengan hati yang riang . Okay , tengok perhimpunan . Asal gelap sangat ? oh , baru pukul 6.55 pagi =,=' Nampak akak form 3 . Dok lah lepak dengan dieorang sementara tunggu geng EP sampai sekolah , Rumah dekat tapi datang lambat nak mampus T.T

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Dah start belajar . Mula -2 Bm , lepas tu sejarah dan lepas tu tak ingat jadual waktu dah -,-' .Cikgu -2 yang mengajar semua nya best . Sorang pon tak nampak yang garang . Semua sporting habis .. Dan macam biasa . Ada masa sikit je mesti cerita yang bukan -2 -,-' . Yang paling penting , tiap kali berkumpul tu jugak lah asyik tergelak keje nya ..

Lepas rehat tu , ada someone ajak EP pergi tandas ..

Dia : Jom pergi tandas ?
EP : Tandas dekat mana ?
Dia : tandas dekat dengan padang tu ..
EP : Ohh , belakang kantin tu ehh ?
Dia : Nak ikot tak ?
EP : Aku rela terjun bangunan daripada berpusing satu sekolah semata -2 nak pergi tandas .

Al maklum lah . Pelajar sekolah kiteorang ni gengster lain macam . Ade tandas pon jahanam pintu dibuatnye . Sebab tu kene guna tandas dekat dengan padang tu .. Tapi tak pe . Tandas dia macam dekat R & R . Bersih gila !

Third Day sekolah :

Mula -2 sampai sekolah , nampak senior form3 lagi . duduk dengan dieorang . lepas tu dieorang pergi tandas , EP pon bla lah . dan EP pon berjalan mencari mangsa dan tiba -2 Nadia panggil . Haha , sumpah tak nampa dia . mengantuk lagi kot . mane lah nak nampak orang .. kiteorang dah letak beg bagai , EP ajak dia pusing -2 sekolah . dah sampai hujung perhimpunan , EP ajak patah balik sebab nampak senior lelaki . FOR YOUR INFORMATION , EP kecut nampak senior lelaki xD . lepas tu kiteorang patah balik pergi tempat asal kiteorang tadi . tiba -2 dia cerita pasal adik dia ...

Nad : Pean , adik kite kan die sebut sewel kan say well .
EP : Sewel ?
Nad : Sewel .. Mereng
EP : ohh .. adik nad sebut sewel macam SAY WELL eh ? *EP eja say well xD*
Nad : haah . pelik kan ?
EP : I'm say well xD
Nad : Haa ?
EP : What you say ?
Nad : I'm say well
*gelak same -2*

masa tu Puteri tengah termenung teringat kan Alientos yang pergi ke mane tah xD . EP suruh Nad tanya Puteri " What you say " . Lepas tu tibe -2 Puteri pandang .. terus tergelak tengok muke die xD . Pagi -2 je dah tergelak -2 macam orang SAY WELL -,-'

Dalam kelas pulak , cikgu BI still tak datang sebab ada orentasi kot .. EP , Puteri , Hanaa berkumpul sekali . Dah lah time tu EP selekeh gile nak mampus sebab tudung longgar . Dan Ainun tibe -2 datang dan die pergi make over tudung EP macam minah Indo . Time tu terasa diri macam dah kena cabul -,-' *bak kata Nadia* . Time berkumpul tu jugak lah si Puteri ni nak pergi tandas . Ahh , konfem EP malas nak turun sebab jauh membatu . Baik pergi time rehat je lagi bagus . Lepas tu dah rase diri kosong . Sekali lagi terasa macam FOREVER ALONE . Puteri dengan Nadia dah balik dari tandas , Puteri cakap " Nak cakap ni . Legaa " . EP terus buat muka frust . Hahaha . Pelik betul minah tu -,-' Lepas tu sambung jadi macam orang gila balik .. Gelak macam orang gila ...

Time Geografi :

Time Geografi tadi cikgu Hadzri ajar pasal Latitud dan Longitud . Cikgu cakap , katakan pilot tu nak pergi bom Afghanistan . Lepas tu tersalah baca kedudukan dan tersasar ke Indonesia .. Tak pasal -2 negara orang jahanam .. *Cikgu Hadzri ikut gaya orang Indo*  " Apa - Apain ni sih ? Gimana ada peperangan di sini ? Gawat nih sihh . Waduh , gawat gawat . " Habis satu kelas tu gelak ..

Senang cerita hari ni asyik tergelak je keje nya -,-'

When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.

Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.

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The blog started May 2009. I made it as my online diary. Not a private, but a public diary. All inside my heart I wrote on it. I want to share to everyone and give you opinion about my entry. Sorry for broken english.

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I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.

The living memories // 2012
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