Heart break

Today ade ceramah maulidur rasul . Sebelum tu ade nasyid budak -2 sekolah mempersembahkan . Lagu nasyid tu tersangat lah best macam lagu hawaii * kawan EP cakap * . Ni percakapan kiteorang .

Balqis : wei , lagu ni macam lagu hawaii lah
EP : Ni nasyid , bukan lagu hawaii .
Balqis : Serious doe macam lagu hawaii .
EP : Kalau kau nak , kau boleh bergelek dekat depan tu
Balqis : Kenape pulak ?
EP : Dah kau kate macam lagu hawaii . Hawaii kan ade bergelek bagai . Kau pakai baju dalam + pakai pokok kelape punye daun tu lepas tu kau bergelek dekat atas pentas . Lepas tu kau ajak lah Hasinah suruh die bergelek dengan kau . Confirm dieorang mintak nombor terus ..

Satu je pesanan , lain kali jangan cakap benda mengarut . Macam -2 idea keluar nanti . Terus tergelak tak berhenti time tu . Sakit perut kiteorang sebab EP cakap macam tu . Act , EP ade ubah sikit . Macam -2 EP cakap tadi . Bhahahaha ..

Time Rehat ~~

Okay , time ni kiteorang dah berjanji . Puteri , EP , Hanaa , Razif nak jumpa time rehat sebab ade perkara mustahak *cehh . Rehat berempat ni pon sebab nak berbincang dengan FA sebab personal problem . Time tu , EP , Puteri , Hanaa , Razif duduk dekat bangku . Razif jeh diri . Dan lepas borak , kiteorang nampak FA dah tunggu kiteoran semue . Nah dialogue ..

Razif : Kiteorang nak kau mintak maaf dekat die depan kiteorang
FA : I'm sorry Pean .

*EP senyapp ~~~ *

Razif : Die tak cakap pon die maafkan kau .
FA : Im very sorry sorry sorry pean .

* EP pusing belakang dan buat tak tau *

Razif : Kau rase kiteorang bace tak tweet kau tu . *blablabla*
Puteri : Die nak ayat keramat kau tu ~
EP : K fine ! Gua lari macam ni

* EP bla dari situ . Dan dieorang teruskan perbualan tanpa EP *

Otw pergi kantin tu , Razif nampak EP ikot .

Razif : Eh , Pean ikot lah

Dah sampai kantin tu , EP pergi dekat senior . Borak -2 + menjerit dengan Kak Nana . Puteri dengan Hanaa pergi beli makanan . Razif dah bla mane tah -.- . FA forever alone . Merayap -2 ke mana tah . Tak amik tau ^.^v

Lepas dah beli makanan semue . FA datang ke arah kiteorang . Puteri dengan Hanaa dekat depan , EP dengan FA dekat belakang . Ya Allah , malu nye kiteorang . Dah lah ade senior nampak FA pakai nametag EP . Lagi lah malu . Dan , EP nak mengelakkan diri daripada berjalan dengan FA , EP nak duduk sebelah Hanaa . Hanaa cakap ,,

Hanaa : Pean ! duduk belakang ! Kalau tak kite tak nak kawan pean .
EP : Errrr , tapi ..
Hanaa & Puteri : duduk je lah belakang tu .
FA : Die kan pemalu sikit .

Ayat last tu , back up gua nampak ? Ke perli ? Ahh , abaikan . Mase tu ramai gile kot yang nampak . Errr , time kiteorang nak pergi ruang legar , nampak kawan EP . Name die Fareena ..

Fareena : Pean !
EP : Ape ?
* Fareena tunjuk arah kiteorang *
EP : Kiteorang tak de pape lah . Kawan je .
* Fiuuu ~ bla dari situ *

Dah sampai dekat ruang legar , Puteri berhenti kan kiteorang sebab nak betulkan tali kasut die -.-' Dan datang sekumpulan akak form 4 . Kak Auni jeh EP ingat .

Kak Auni : FA tu hensem lah ..
EP : FA ! Die cakap kau hensem .

Lepas tu Kak Auni cakap EP ade ape -2 dengan Razif . Ehh , macam asdfghhjkl je masing -2 . Kiteorang kawan ye . Harap maklum :'3 . Cau  dari situ dan kiteorang nak naik kelas . Kiteorang still jalan belakang mangkuk -2 ayun tu . Okay , tadi EP malu gila nak mampus . Dan , lepas nak naik kelas tu , hilang dah semue perasaan tu .

FA : Forgive me ?
EP : No .
FA : Please ?
EP : No
FA : Tolonglahh
EP : kalau aku tak maafkan kau , ape kau buat untuk aku ?

* tak dapat tangkap ape yang die cakap . hahaha *

FA : tolong lah , maafkan aku .
EP : okay , ni last aku maafkan kau . lepas ni jangan harap aku nak maafkan kau .
FA : okay , i promise . baii

Puteri dengan Hanaa tengok kiteorang dari atas je -.-' . FYI , ramai cakap EP dengan FA sweet . Ya Allah ! Ape yang sweet nye ? Tak de langsung pon , K ? Dari kawan hingga ke senior cakap benda yang sama . Dugaan :')


 i will take care of your nametag like im take care of you :')  - FA
i will wear that name tag every night i sleep <3  - FA


p/s : please don't break my heart again . im tired already . Kbai

When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.

Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.

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The blog started May 2009. I made it as my online diary. Not a private, but a public diary. All inside my heart I wrote on it. I want to share to everyone and give you opinion about my entry. Sorry for broken english.

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I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.

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