Heart break

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When we lose in the game of love,
it felt like we lose our heart.
Its too hurt.
And I'm afraid too fall in love again...

Cuti sekolah

Sunday, December 8, 2013 // 12:13 PM - 1 comment(s)

Aku paling tak suka bila tibanya waktu cuti sekolah yang panjaaaaaaaaaaaang sangat macam sekarang ni. Aku bosan tau? Dah lah aku sorang-sorang je dekat rumah, kalau pergi TTJ pun, aku jumpa sepupu aku. Aku dah bosan dah jumpa dia. Dia masih 6 tahun dan perangai dia bukannya sama dengan aku -.- Aku kadang-kadang tu rasa nak tidur sepanjang hari je. Kalau dekat rumah aku, takde maknanya aku boleh bangun tidur balik. Almaklumlah, aku ni adik-beradik tak ramai. Dua orang je. Akak aku pergi belajar, tinggallah aku seorang jadi macam anak tunggal. Ada kucing pun dia bukannya nak tolong. Dia tolong buat sepah, mengacau. Itu je lah kerjanya.

Macam tulah muka aku sekarang

Aku kadang-kadang tu aku online sampai kena marah dengan mak aku. Hehe. Aku tengok Running Man lah bagai. Then gelak-gelak, kena marah lagi dengan mak aku. Langsung aku tak gelak dah. Sekarang pun aku masih lagi berniat nak tengok Running Man dan pada masa yang sama, aku pergi buka buku rujukan Agama Islam SPM dan buat powerpoint. Hm. Senang, belajar tengok warna-warni ni senang hafal. Aku nak belajar chemist dengan physic nanti aku tak faham pulak. Lebih baik aku baca Agama Islam dengan Sejarah. Walaupun aku menyampah dengan sejarah tu -.-

Weh! Aku bosan tahu?!

Tapi yang paling aku suka waktu cuti ni, aku boleh simpan duit banyak-banyak, boros banyak-banyak, kumpul balik, putihkan kulit. Sampai nak keluar rumah pun tak mahu. Hm, itu pemalas namanya. Haha. Eh, aku dah cerah okay. Aku nak pulihkan kulit aku yang dah terbakar kena makan dengan cahaya matahari. Sebab tu aku jadi puteri lilin dekat rumah. Haktuih sikit!

p/s : Cuti dah tinggal sikit dan result pun hampir keluar. Oh yeah! -.-

I hate my past but I want back my past...

When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.

Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.

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The Past.

I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.

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