Heart break

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When we lose in the game of love,
it felt like we lose our heart.
Its too hurt.
And I'm afraid too fall in love again...

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Monday, February 3, 2014 // 8:53 PM - 0 comment(s)

Sejak aku naik ke tingkatan empat ni, jangan haraplah aku akan menghadap laptop selama 24 jam. Hujung minggu atau cuti je baru aku sentuh laptop ni. Nasib baiklah sekarang ni aku cuti lagi sampai esok. Almaklumlah, CNY kan, sekolah aku mesti lah cuti lama sebab ramai cina dekat sekolah tu. Tak lah ramai mana. Bawah sepuluh orang je. Tapi cuti sampai 6 hari. Pekejadah eh?

Bukan aku tak suka cuti lama-lama, tapi masalahnya cikgu bagi homework macam enam tahun. Banyaknya jangan cakap lah kan. 8 daripada 10 subjek aku ada homework. Tak ke gila aku nak siapkannya? Adalah 2 subjek aku dah siapkan. Yang lain baru esok aku habiskan. Masa cuti macam ni mesti lah ramai nak balik kampung kan? Aku pun tak terkecuali lah. Aku pun balik kampung jugak sebab sepupu aku kahwin. Homework pun aku baru je buat hari ni. Aku duduk rumah ingat aku goyang kaki je ke? Double hello, ada banyak lagi kerja yang aku kena buat. Dengan nak melayan kucing aku yang gemuk tu lagi. Naik gila aku dibuatnya.

Apa yang penting, akaun yang paling suffer lah aku pernah belajar. Walaupun aku dapat cikgu yang tegas, aku berdoa je suatu hari nanti dia akan bagi aku A+ dalam SPM. Amin. Doakan 9 subjek aku yang lain dapat A+ jugak tau? Sampai sini jelah aku taip. Kalau ada masa lapang nanti aku post lagi okay? Bye.

p/s: Masih lagi ada gosip pasal aku dekat sekolah tu. Tension aku -.-

I hate my past but I want back my past...

When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.

Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.

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The Past.

I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.

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