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When we lose in the game of love,
it felt like we lose our heart.
Its too hurt.
And I'm afraid too fall in love again...

Tahun Melawat Malaysia : Melaka

Monday, January 6, 2014 // 9:40 PM - 0 comment(s)

Tahun melawat Malaysia sudah pun dilancarkan pada 1 Januari 2014. So, aku sebagai salah seorang warganegara Malaysia ni, aku pun turut lah menjelajah ke negeri orang. Almaklumlah, masa cuti sekolah, aku bukannya pergi bercuti. Sibuk buat tahi mata dekat rumah. Keluarga aku pun ajak lah pergi merayap-rayap ke negeri orang lain. First vacation aku untuk tahun ni ialah, Melaka.

Aku pergi Melaka ni aku tak ikut highway. Takut sesak je. Biasalah, cuti hujung minggu, takkan tak sesak kan? Tahulah Malaysia ni macam mana pula kan? Sesak dia jangan cakap. Beratur berjam-jam. Sampai sakut tulang belakang aku. Mula-mula sampai, pergi cari tempat makan dulu. Masing-masing kebulur. Ye lah, sarapan mana ada. Terus gerak pergi Melaka je. Perjalanan pun lebih kurang satu jam setengah. Aku rasa macam nak tidur je. Lepas dah makan semua, berjalan pula pergi naik menara taming sari. Sesungguhnya, aku dah lama tak naik menara taming sari ni. Adalah dalam 6 tahun macam tu.

Mak aku gila takut nak pandang bawah masa dah ada dekat tahap paling tinggi sekali. Biasalah, orang darah tinggi kan? Aku elok je pandang bawah. Rasa macam nak meloncat je. Hahaha. Aku dengan abah aku sibuk cari mana kereta aku. Mak aku pula dah bersandar tak nak tengok bawah. Aku siap tinjau lagi. Dan aku fikir, " apasal tak lagi tinggi eh? " . Aku bukannya gayat ke apa. Aku memang suka benda-benda macam ni. Masa aku naik kereta kabel dekat Langkawi masa umur aku 6 tahun tu, aku siap melompat dalam tu tau. Nasib baik tak jatuh. Hehe.

p/s: Insyaallah, minggu ni aku merayap ke Muzium Negeri Sembilan pula :D Nak release tension katekoo

I hate my past but I want back my past...

When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.

Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.

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The Past.

I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.

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