Heart break

Aku tengok artis-artis zaman sekarang ni semuanya tiru gaya Kpop. Artis melayu lelaki yang muda-muda terutamanya. Kalau Kpop tu lain lah, memang cara mereka. Takkan kita yang duduk Malaysia ni pun nak tiru macam orang Korea. Dan aku pun tak faham. Lagu-lagu mereka boleh lah, tak berapa best, tak berapa nak sedap lah pada pendengaran aku. Tapi bila aku tengok video mereka, mengucap panjang aku. Masing-masing muka jambu. Rentak tari mereka pun keras juga. Tapi siapalah aku untuk menilai orang kan? Tapi tu lah, bila aku tengok satu kumpulan ni, alahai... Nak kata macam gay pun ada. Lembut semacam. Takkan lelaki zaman sekarang jadi macam ni pula? Takkan nak tiru jadi gay juga macam orang Korea tu? Aku bukan kutuk Kpop okay kpopers, aku pun salah seorang kpopers juga. Tapi tak terlalu obses sangat. Memang betul pun ramai gay-gay dekat Korea sana. Tidak dapat dinafikan.

Kalau perempuan melayu pula, sibuk nak pakai make up macam awek Korea lah, lens macam awek Korea lah. Ada juga tu, nak buat plastic surgery macam mereka. Kita ni Islam, takkan tak tahu hukum-hakam semua ni? Ni lah yang paling menyedihkan. Ikutkan kehendak hati sampai lupa tentang hukum-hakam. Remaja sekarang bukan boleh ditegur. Lagi ditegur, lagi dibuatnya. Padahal mereka tak ingat balasan yang akan dikenakan di Akhirat kelak, bukan? Renung-renungkanlah...

p/s: Bak kata pepatah, takkan Melayu hilang didunia. Tapi Melayu sekarang dah bertukar, takkan tak hilang kot? Sikit demi sikit mereka akan pupus kot?

When we being love with someone that we want, it feel like this world is yours. But when we lose on it, we lose the world, heart and everything.Its just like me. Im tired to being hurt. Im not a doll. I've a feeling eventhough I never show it. I only show my love in front of you. Not in front of our friend. You never understand me. You want me understand you and show my love for you. Im sorry, Im not type of that girl. Im a shy girl who want show her love in front her beloved one. Im glad that I'd love you and I'd have you before. I hope you'll never come back in my life.

Im a sixteen years old girl who want a happiness and someone who can love me perfectly. But I didn't found it. My life now I feel very lonely, lifeless, full of sadness and too many fake in my life. Why? I've been hurting before. Until now I feel its too hurt. I have crush on someone but I don't feel the love. Where's my love go? After being hurting, Im just too lazy to love someone even he try to take my heart. Im afraid that I'll lose someone who I love. Yeah, Im very afraid about it. So, being single is the best way for me.

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The blog started May 2009. I made it as my online diary. Not a private, but a public diary. All inside my heart I wrote on it. I want to share to everyone and give you opinion about my entry. Sorry for broken english.

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I'd my first love on 13 April of 2012 and I lose it on 22 August of 2013. Its to hurt to remember it but I try my best to put it here. We'd love and need each other every time. On night weekend, we always on the phone until morning. Even sleepy, but I still want to hear his voice. But, I don't know what happen to us. We always fight and sometimes I felt want to give up. But I chose to stay. And one day, on 7 June 2013, he called me and crying. He said I love you but I gave him another chance. About one month later, I knew he had another relationship behind me. Eventhough we had a relationship, but he didn't tell to anyone. And at the end, I leave him eventhough he said that he love me. Arghh, I don't believe him anymore. He had a new one but he still don't want to let me go. Im not a doll. Again, Im not. I want someone who know what I feel. I never show my love to everyone but I hope you can feel it. If one day he'll lose someone he loved, I'll smile on it. Why? Because he'll feel the same that I felt before.

The living memories // 2012
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